December 2, 2017 at 1:19 pm (By Ron, Uncategorized) ()

Your enemies scoffed. Your friends fretted,  the closest of them doing so silently, almost stoically.  You had none of these feelings, for reasons you could not explain even to those most cherished.

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The future was yours to shape as you will — it is your Austerlitz Day! No whim or caprice shall be denied you today;  the heavens do not grant these days freely or often.  But it is this day, more than any other that reminds of what great triumphs you can achieve.  Do not fret or fear any obstacle; wryly view these as that which makes your success that much more amazing, more profound!  See your as yet unaccomplished goals in life as already vanquished foes, praying for your mercy and forbearance!  Your strength is more than willing to be generous in their defeat, because you know that the Fates could have turned on you and not them.  Forward!  Even more glory awaits!



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A Muffled Lantern

November 3, 2017 at 2:44 pm (Uncategorized)


There’s almost no new news about the “West Side terror attack.” I can’t decide if that’s media amnesia—the accelerating addiction to ever fresher thrills—or an admirable determination to go on with life.
All I know is, you’re still resonating with the emotion of a story and the media hustle you on. My first experience of this was Tiananmen Square, and it put me off media news consumption ever since. I am a slow-paced ruminant, I guess. I resist being turned into a media lab rat conditioned to await the next jolt from the electrode. Partly, it’s having lived with Jacques who had lived through something very real in real time. I got it a distant second-hand (second-hand is always distant*) and worked very hard to make it as real to myself as was humanly possible (which is not very) using only an imagination. Vicarious media participation in traumatic events is film-thin and can be peeled off just that easily. One feels one owes the directly traumatized more respect than that. And of course we privately give, in our imaginations, more respect than the amnesic media with their ratings cravings.
*(Jacques loved this quote from L.–F. Céline: “Experience is a muffled lantern that sheds its light only on the bearer.)

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The receiving instrument

October 26, 2017 at 11:06 am (Uncategorized)

(Some discoveries are too good just to drop on @#&^$*&!! Facebook where I myself will never see them again. Besides, I want Louise to see this.)

What a lovely term I never heard before — the “beholder’s share,” the unique creative contribution that each viewer/listener/reader brings to perceiving a work of art. It was coined by Alois Riegl of the Vienna school of art history and his disciples Ernst Kris (who became a psychoanalyst) and Ernst Gombrich.

I had come to this concept (without having a word for it) in regard to Jacques, who was an immensely generous and percipient listener to music, especially jazz — its ideal audience perhaps — who was obviously musically gifted, but had never learned, in his rough-and-tumble life, to play an instrument well. (It might have been the bass.) It struck me that “the ear is the fifth instrument in the quartet,” that no piece of music is complete or fulfilled without a listener, a witness, and that listening, like playing, must also be practiced and refined. And the same can be said for every art. Now I have a term for it. The beholder’s share.

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The Race Between the Two Human Drives

October 28, 2014 at 11:24 pm (Uncategorized)

The Race Between the Two Human Drives.

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Happy Fourth of July

July 4, 2014 at 11:39 pm (Uncategorized)

And just under the wire!

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As I Wrote 4 Years Ago . . .

June 15, 2014 at 2:06 am (Uncategorized)

As I Wrote 4 Years Ago . . .

Wow!! I’ve S T I L L got my Dad!!!

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More Bullshit . . .

March 15, 2014 at 10:17 am (Uncategorized)

. . . on A Cold Eye (where I describe myself frankly as a bullshitter). I hesitated to post the link here, thinking, “What’s the point? All I’m doing is inviting realpc to come over here and tell me I’m wrong about everything.”

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And a year later…

January 30, 2014 at 2:38 pm (By Ron, Uncategorized)


Yeah, January 31st!

So, after a crazy year where am I?  Have things gotten better?  Worse?  The same?

Overall, I’d say things are cautiously better.  I’m out of a bad living situation, and while where I am is still tentative and not really where I want to be ultimately, it’s far better than things were last spring.  My health…is better too, but s-l-o-w-l-y over what it was.  Of the two illnesses I had last June, one is gone completely and the other…is still there, but far better.  My leg illnesses is First World War like; lots of energy expended for gradual improvements.  But they are improvements!  I figure when I take the dirt nap I’ll be in great shape!  Hmmm……

Mentally, things are much better, but not really for rational reasons!  I think I see so many folks around me my age, tired, cranky, defeated, frustrated that they realize they aren’t going to be Mick Jagger (or Tom Wolfe, if you want to get a bit more toney) and I feel oddly fresher than when I was 25.  As with most good things in my life I have to give credit for this to Nietzsche.  He’s the only writer I’ve ever read that has given me a workout and energy for life for decades.  Even when I flag, that Zarathustrean esprit carries me through.  As he said of Goethe, Nietzsche has “disciplined me to gentleness and a wisdom full of pranks.”  You’ve all suffered through my puns; I can’t help it, that’s where I find that crackle, that lightning charge, that goofy delight in life and learning.  Feh, on stodginess and seriousness.  Astaire has taught me the virtue of light feet.  (This from the guy with the swollen leg!)

There’s so much to do…and not enough resources, funds, and time.  But we do what we can; writing here continues apace, and I even can find my peace and joy in it.  I don’t edit myself anymore; why bother?  Just go with where your finger energy takes you and figure it out later.

Among the goofy ideas I’d like to do…


See that ’49 Cadillac?  I’d like to get something like that…..and make it a hybrid.  It wouldn’t be too hard I think, and the idea of getting say,  25 mpg, out of a tank like that has a lot of contrarian appeal.

Plus…lets look for a partner to do this:


Love to you all, especially our Greenwich Floridian and Hostess, just for setting this whole shee-bang up!


Checkout the birthday card from my very sweet amiga, Lela Dowling!


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Finding Beauty in . . . Alzheimer’s??

September 17, 2013 at 10:16 pm (Uncategorized)

Believe it or not.

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September 14, 2013 at 7:14 pm (Uncategorized)

When G.W Bush was fooled into invading Iraq, Democrats went insane with rage.

When Obama almost got fooled into bombing Syria, Democrats didn’t have much at all to say.


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